when your mind's made up

today started out lovely.


i've kind of realized that i'm in this new, weird place that i don't really care about dating.

generally, i can tell whether i want to spend more time with someone in about 15-20 minutes. (usually)

although i guess it's nice to get the attention, i'm not sure that it's worth it. i don't have a problem being by myself. in fact, i almost prefer it. i'm finding that there are few people out there truly worth the time of having a romantic relationship with. until i find that person, then i guess i'm kind of kissing dating goodbye. haha. that's kind of weird to say, and i thought it was hilarious that promptly after i finished that book (I Kissed Dating Goodbye), he wrote a book about marriage with his wife. at the time i didn't really understand how that could come about, since he wasn't dating.

but now, i completely understand.

basically, i feel that accepting a date from a boy that i have no intention of starting a relationship with is a weakness. i feel that it makes it seem that i'm being validated through this male attention. the truth is that i don't really want or need that, so i would rather choose strength and find other, better things to do with my time.

Beauty is that which attracts the soul...

-Gibran

so, until i find someone with a sexy soul, i'm going to be content with just me. :-)


maybe you are wondering where i'll ever meet a man or get a boyfriend. well, i'm okay with testing this theory for a while and seeing what kind of quality is produced. if and when i get desperate, then maybe i'll accept a date from a dull, uninteresting, less than intelligent bloke.

instead of going on a bunch of dates with people that i already know i dont' want to spend more time with, i'm going to spend time with those that i love and care about.

i'll keep you posted on this, as i've been known to change my mind.