What a beautiful mess I'm in.

many times in my life i have found myself thinking, Jenn, how did you get yourself here?

surprisingly, i'm rather patient with myself. i generally laugh, and think that only i could have been as ditzy to drive myself headlong into a seemingly impossible situation.

last night was no exception.

i have a feeling that God is rather amused with me on many days. i'm ridiculous, and i like it.

i learn quickly, but apply slowly.
i think thoroughly, yet rarely do i express my clarity. i'm not sure why.

most times i think too fast, and i get frustrated with the explanation that i offer to others. i would prefer if someone could crawl into my mind and view the beautiful fluidity that i see.

maybe i'm biased. maybe not.

anyway, i found myself in another ridiculous situation last night, exhausted all logical options, and ended up having to rely on my best friend for help.

i get that i can't do all. i get that i am human. i get that i will always be a person to have fantastically surreal stories that people will always say, "that only happens in the movies!"

i'm a lucky one. i love my life. always have and always will.

that's why, one day, when my book is completed to my satisfaction, i truly feel that it will feed the souls of those in need, offer up some humor for humdrum lives, and make my favorites very proud.

oh to breathe with contentment.