today i feel better.
more like myself, so that's nice.
it's funny how you can genuinely care for a person, yet not compliment them...or them compliment you in any way.
it's a hard pill to swallow, to know that i can't change the world, or even a person, for the better. i mean, i'm sure sometimes i can, but not all the time.
i see so much beauty and potential in things. they usually let me down. i know that i will never stop looking for the best, pushing for the best, and being the best i can be in everything in my life (or trying anyway). i'm probably going to be let down a lot. i've discovered that. i'm blessed/cursed with this eternal optimism. sometimes i just want to have a negative thought about someone, or be mad...i just can't. not for long, anyway. it's not the way i'm built.
everyone, in my mind, has something redeeming about them.
i'm okay with that. i'm just learning that i deserve someone (and things in my life) that are apparent. i shouldn't have to dig for the good.
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5 comments:
That's so great that you always see the good in people. I am trying to do more of that. I wish it were more natural for me. xx
Do you ever feel like your "eternal optimism" gets you hurt? Like other people would have seen that coming, but because you think the best about everything/everyone you end up getting smashed in the face with the reality that most people don't think like that? Or even care? It's a harsh reality, but I wouldn't trade the way I look at the world for anything. :)
for some reason i forgot how to comment your blog! man ive been out of the internet loop for 2 days now..which obviously translates into 2 years(leet speak).
anyways im glad today is better, it will get better and better. It has to, havent you ever heard of darwin? and the evolution of the strongest? youre optimism is prime, my dear. And I cant wait to go to england with you.
please take me to heaven, LAHV. thats britspeak for love.
I envy that! I wish that I saw the good in everything. I tend to look at the bad until someone redeems themselves. It comes from years of being hurt and expecting to be hurt. Everyone is guilty until proven innocent in my book.
I would trade for your attitude at any time. I wish I was more optimistic about things....
It's a great quality to have -- even if it gets you hurt sometimes!
thanks for the support, lovvis! i wouldn't change how i am, but i'm telling you, sometimes i wish i could develop some cynicism to avoid the ol' heartbreak.
it's okay, though. i like who i am. :-)
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