still searching. i only know what i don't want.

well, i am so glad to send may on its way.

i'm not really sure why, but it's my least favorite month. maybe that's just because of the amount of work i've done this may. probably so, because may is actually full of birthdays of those i love and anniversaries. needless to say, i'm glad it's over.

to usher it out properly, some friends and i decided upon karaoke. good choice.







jordan also got married this weekend, and that was fun.



i'm determined to be less stressed this month. i've hit the ground running, and i plan on keeping that up.

this month should be fun. i have a few weddings to go to, and i think i'm going to take a bestie trip! hooray!

the last week of the month is gay week, and i'm pretty sure i'm going to my first gay pride parade! i'm really, really excited about it. i have no idea what i'm going to wear.

today is my brother's 21st birthday. honestly, this is way harder than when i turned 22. seriously. it's so odd. so if you see my brother, wish him a happy birthday!

"are you chasing your vodka with bean dip?"

it's birthday season! huzzah!



we celebrated my bestie's bday this weekend at bolero and michael murphy's.

i have to say, i am more than impressed with bolero. the ambiance is spectacular. the color scheme is rich and bright, and it definitely mimics the delicious food. everything is very modern and high end, and i think it's the perfect spot for summer dining. it is set up much like a T, and the walls of the restaurant are lifted on nice days. it creates a very open environment. the back walls are adorned with lovely, orignal artwork, and the chef visited every table after the rush to make sure he was doing his job. (and he was!) it's a little pricy, but the food and service make it worth it.



last night was kirk's bday, and we did it up right with vino, dancing, and unicorn cake!







best picture ever. another successful birthday. :-)

rml!

so, today i was sitting around, being cheery and stuff, and then something great happened!

with the overuse of fml, that was actually my first thought. that's when i realized the need for a similar acronym for wonderful things that happen. thus the birth of rock my life!



rml!

the main reason i was rml-ing is that i received an email from a london-based contract publisher about doing some work. i know it's only a small, tiny, baby step. but, it's a freakin' step!

i'm really excited and not even going to monitor my use of exclamation points right now!

also, i have been jammin' to the pandora dance mix station.

do you guys remember this song?!



oh those lovable, (possible) lesbian russians.

zumba!

this is MY song! that's right...no one can have. it's for me and zumba. :-)




i'm so addicted. watch the video below and give me one reason why not. (:45 and 2:36 are my fave dance moves to do!)shout out to k-balls and angelarito!

well, that's weird.

i'm pretty pumped about pool parties! which is weird, because i don't really like the sun.

however, my coworkers have gotten me jazzed about the idea of fun and sun. okay, mainly just fun for me.



we have a nice setup, though, so i think i'll do just fine with my cocktail, big hat, and good book.

summer, i will make the best of you.

there are rules for the sex pit

this weekend has been just lovely. i haven't gotten much work done, but i have gotten plenty of fun in. :-)

i reconnected with a friend that i've missed tremendously, and that was probably the highlight.

today i've spent loads of time researching tier 2 visas. wow, there is a ton of information out there with all the changes that have gone down in the past few months, current economies, and blah, blah, blah. basically, it's not going to be easy, which i've known from the beginning.

i have a phone pre-interview thing tomorrow at 4, and i'm looking forward to getting a few things straightened up. through www.ukvisas.uk.gov, i could apply today. i'm going to wait and ensure that i have all necessary information before i move on in the process.

i was under the impression that i was required to have a job offer before i could pursue a tier 2. however, i may have been mistaken about that. this would relieve the whole catch-22 the uk has going on... i plan to find out tomorrow. if i don't actually have to have an offer before i apply, that'd be great! in fact, that'd pretty much make my summer. :-)

another very good thing is that tier 2 visas are waaaaay cheaper than tier 1. holla! that part jazzes me up.

anyway, i'll keep you posted on this long and winding road the british government puts visa applicants through.

i was reading a funny blog about this girl's frustrations. she's 29, ten years of experiences in her field, but because of the new regulations she does not qualify for a tier 1. however, a 24-year-old girl that has her masters in art and no experience can get approved asap. she was talking about how that's a big fat brit government fail. i kind of agree.

anyway, i'll keep you posted on the road to a success (hopefully!).

when your mind's made up

currently wading through 269 pages full of registered tier 2 sponsors.

exciting? yes.

time consuming? very.

worth it? every second.

lie to me

i really love "lie to me," but i keep forgetting to watch it.

i'm watching it right now.

so, lovvis, how are you doing? i'm always blogging, talking about myself...

what's new with you? tell me! i want to know. :-)

sentimental hearts

so, lovvis, life is good.

i'm super proud of abbers and ross. they graduated last night, and we had a fun time in stillwater (as always). being at graduation really made me want to pursue my masters. it is the first time since i graduated in 07 that i've really considered it, so i've begun research on a masters program. yay!

here are some pics from last night...

cinco de mayo

well, a very successful cinco de mayo, indeed.

zumba was crazy tonight. crazy in a good way.

i should be sleeping because i have tons to do tomorrow, but i'm blogging and writing and thinking instead.

i'm currently thinking about perfection. and, admittedly, perfection depends a whole lot on one's own perception. right? well, i think so. who really has the authority to set a standard that is suitable for all people?

well, i'm currently thinking about what things are perfect in my life. i can happily report that nothing is perfect, nor would i want it to be.

perfection means no fault. faults, to me, are what make people beautiful and unique.

perfection, to me, is listening to damien rice on a rainy day. snuggling on the couch with a good movie and a good person is perfect. laughing until i cry is perfect. having a successful run is perfect. feeling an overwhelming sense of validation is perfect.

are all these things perfect when separated? maybe not. i'm sure there is something faulty with each and every thing i adore.

perfection, to me, is finding beauty in fault.


so, i'm curious...what is perfection to you?

vintage pirates

i was going to write a long blog about why i think true piracy is a legacy that can't be touched...alas, i'm too exhausted and feeling rather narcissistic, so i'm doing a survey all about me instead!

If your last ex got their heart broken, would you feel bad for them?
of course. i want all of them to be happy campers.

Have your parents ever caught you drinking?
i drink with my parents.

How many people have you kissed who's name started with an J?
if i tell you i had to consult my list and count, does that make me a bad person?

Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol?
no. i love vino.

What is the shortest time you can take getting ready in the morning?
one time i took 4 minutes. seriously.

Listen to Miley Cyrus for 3 hours straight or go skydiving?
well, either way i'm ending up jumping from something...so skydiving...at least i have a chute

First person under ' A' on your cell phone?
aaron

Would you take someone back if they cheated on you?
it depends on lots of things.

Do you feel its hard to sleep on your stomach?
that's the only way i can sleep

Do you like messages or comments better?
both make me feel really special.

Is there someone you will never forget?
haha yes

Have you ever shouted at random people from inside a moving car?
oh yes, of course

When is your birthday?
november 11th

What were you doing at 4 am this morning?
41 minutes from waking up

Have you ever liked someone older than you?
usually that's the way it goes

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
no he is not

Has anyone seen you in your underwear this past month?
this is a fact.

Are you in a good mood?
very good

What movie's in your DVD player?
if i had to guess...love actually, will & grace, or down with love

Do you like to cuddle?
oh man

Do you have any nicknames?
several

Were you mad when you woke up this morning?
haha noooo. far from it.

When did you last make cookies?
yesterday

Have you ever met a gay person?
wow. silliest question ever.

What’s something you’re excited about right now?
oh man, so many lovely things.

What brand of socks are you wearing right now?
i got them at a gypsy booth in portland. they have flowers on them, but no label.

What school did you go to in 8th grade?
chattanooga high school

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
nope

What drink did you last consume?
milk

Who were the last males you talked to?
mike at the gym

Have you ever seen the last person you texted naked?
haha woah woah. now we are getting personal

What color eyes do you have?
they are blue

Will tomorrow be better than today?
who knows?

Is your shirt yellow?
no.

Do you want to see somebody right now?
i might

How many piercings do you have?
3, about to be four again

Do you like coffee?
oh man, i love it. but i can't really drink it anymore. it makes me all crazy.

Do you prefer the ocean or pool?
ocean

Where are you?
living room

Do you find the opposite sex confusing?
i refuse to label an entire gender. certain people are confusing.

What is wrong with you right now?
notta thing

Are you happy?
very much so

Where were you at 2:02 this morning?
sleeeping

Do you have trust issues?
i don't unless the person seems shady, then i do. so, i guess i do haha

If your parents didnt like the person you were dating, would you lose them?
no

Are you tan?
have you met me?

Has anyone ever called you a bitch?
mmhmm.

Have you ever been told that you were going to hell?
um, yes, actually. by preacher bob because i was wearing pink.

What did you do this weekend?
i had a tremendous amount of amazingness.

Will this upcoming weekend be a good one?
i'm certain it will

Ever liked someone whose name started with a J?
that i have

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
been there

Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
pretty open

Do you think two people can last forever?
no. death happens.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
daddy

You're locked in a room with the last person you kissed, how is it?
i would be completely okay with that

What is your current mood?
chipper

Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?
oh yes

How do you feel about your hair right now?
i need a haircut

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
sure

When is the last time you said you were fine and you really weren't?
several years probably. i've learned to be pretty open and honest about that...

Have you ever had anything expensive stolen from you?
mmhmmm

Ever kissed someone starting with A?
that i have

Who was the last person who said "I love you" to you that wasn't family?
kissyfer

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
i have

Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
mmhmmm

When is the next time you'll hug someone?
tomorrow!

Have you ever slept in the same bed as your friend?
um, yes

Which smells better: Gasoline or Sharpies?
sharpies!

What was the weather like today?
perfect, actually

Would you ever want to be a supermodel?
well, i'm not tall enough. (thank goodness) if i were, i'm afraid that i'd be one of "those" girls that never at and was super obsessed with runway. luckily, i'm only 5'3''

Have you spoken to your father today?
yes i have

Do you think that you will be married within ten years?
meh, we'll see

Are you angry about anything?
no, not at all

Will you be up before 7am tomorrow?
i have to be at work at 7, so yes

there's nothing wrong with me loving you

Last place you held someone’s hand?
in a bed

So from now on, you're going to be asked unique questions, you ready?
i'm totally ready

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment even if it's just a crush?
he's at his home.

Would you date someone who lived in another state?
no no no

Could you handle a long distance relationship?
i've done it before, but i like this whole same zip code thing

Relationships or one night stands?
relationships. i like people.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
last week. wait...still kind of do. hehe

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
oh i'm sure

Do you laugh a lot?
quite a bit, especially this weekend.

Do you consider yourself lucky?
i am blessed.

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
we are engaged :)

Do you think you're pregnant?
i don't think so

You have to get a facial piercing, what do you get?
going to get my nose redone in a few weeks.

You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
my hubby's name tatted around my ring finger

Could you cry right now?
probably if i tried really hard. i cry easily.

Who was your last text from?
my brudder just texted me

Do you ever think about stuff and start crying?
um no

Have you ever been awake for 2 days straight?
negative

What are the things you've heard people say about you?
that i'm awesome, sexy, a great friend, have a telephone-sex-operator voice, have big boobs, am a flirt, that my dog is cute, that i have an obscene amount of energy, that i have a sexy fiance...lots of things. :-)

Are you mad at someone right now?
no, that takes too much negative energy

Who did you spend your summer with last year?
erm. lots of people

Are you okay with the life you live?
indeed

Last person you told a secret to?
jenn

Would you run around a neighborhood at night without a shirt for 500 dollars?
of course i would

Do you like hugs and kisses?
mmhmm

Have you ever made fun of anybody and later became their friend?
haha word.

Have you ever caught a friend cheating on their bf/ gf?
hm no, not exactly.

Who's the last person you talked to on the phone?
mumsy

When was the last time something bothered you?
last week

Have you ever licked a photo?
i mean, i can't say "no" with certainty. there is always that possibility, i suppose.

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
yes

Have you ever had your heart broken?
oh geeze. i wrote the book, i'm afraid. love big, hurt big. i'm okay with it, though.

How many kids do you want to have?
i think i want 3 children...not sure how many will be adopted of the bunch, maybe all of them!

Have you ever found it hard to tell anyone you like them?
nope, i'm pretty honest about that sort of thing

What song do you want played at your wedding?
probably "sexual healing"

Do you love anyone?
mm hmmm

Did you have a good day today?
it was a great day

What are you thinking about?
how much things have changed in the last week, how i'm ready to hit this month's books hard, how i'm going to have the longest, best workout ever tomorrow, and how much i love

why don't you do something love for a change?

Great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.
-Albert Einstein

things are good.

i have amazing friends, family, and job.

this week, something happened that made the "top 5 most exciting life moments" list. i kind of like that a lot.